We are about to embark on our biggest adventure so far! We have been dreaming of this for a very long time, the journey to where we are now has not been easy at all but it has been so worth it.

So without further delays…

Graham and I are delighted to announce that our next adventure will be….

PARENTHOOD!

We have been immensely blessed with a baby who should be greeting us in August 2018. We are over the moon and nervous at the same time.

THE JOURNEY

Being parents had been a dream of ours for a very long time. Like most people, we planned to get married and then have children a few years later. We assumed it would happen relatively quickly, because….. how hard can it be right?

15 months went by, an early miscarriage, many tears and many prayers later, we had pretty much given up the idea of having a kid. It had been an intense emotional roller coaster ride for over a year and we weren’t sure how much disappointments we could take.

In that time, we have watched many new babies born around us and saw many more pregnancy announcements. As happy as we were for other people, each time it  felt like a stab in our hearts. Almost as if God was reminding us how easy it is for other people, but not for us.

We became bitter and confused. Doctors couldn’t really find anything wrong with us so why is it taking so long?? It pained us so but we began to accept that maybe, we are not meant to have children of our own.

All the while we were going through this, people around have started to ask the question “When are you guys having kids?”. How we wanted to scream, “WE ARE TRYING” every time we heard that question..!

FINDING OUT

Late last year, I had been experiencing intense back pain which I thought was a little unusual. But for 15 months, I have experienced many possible pregnancy symptoms that were not pregnancy symptoms at all.

I decided to take a test anyway because I had a lot of cheap ones around the house. I finally saw that line I had been longing for for so long.

I didn’t quite believe it so I had to confirm it with a more expensive test, then 10 more tests after that! They all came back positive…!

FEAR

Although we were ecstatic to find out we were finally pregnant, we were terrified at the same time. The risk of miscarriage is 1 in 4 so we were convinced we would miscarry again.

We tried not to get overly excited, which was very difficult. We decided to get an early viability scan with firstScan at 6 weeks. It turned out to be one of the most incredible experience ever!

This was the first time we laid eyes on our little baby! Baby was very small at the time, only measuring 4mm, but we could clearly see the heartbeat! That little flutter filled our eyes with tears and joy.

They were so wonderful at the Window to The Womb Clinic! The staff there made us feel so comfortable and really took the time to explain to us what was happening. They were patient with our questions and the scan we very thorough. At no point did we feel rushed.

We had some lovely prints of our little baby (which looked like a dot) and also the video recording of the whole scan which we were able to share with our families!

After our initial scan, we were less worried and were able to enjoy the news a little more.

NOW

Since then, we have had a few more scans and each time it had been so wonderful to see the growth of our baby. We love seeing the baby move around in the scan. I am now officially in my second trimester and I am still waiting for my symptoms to improve…

This journey has been very tough for both of us. We couldn’t really understand why we had to go through all that pain but now it is very clear.

We now truly understand that God is the only one who can bring life. He has merely entrusted us with this child to love and to look after. Had we gotten pregnant easily, we might foolishly think that we did it by our own strength.

God is good even when we don’t understand or see it sometimes. We are so thankful and our hearts are so full. The road ahead is going to be difficult but we know that we are being led by a God that we can trust.

We are so excited to share this new adventure with you guys!

Photos by Vittore Buzzi 

We had an amazing time on our photo shoot with Vittore. Please check out his work if you are ever in Italy!

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